Since I couldn't embed the song itself...

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

...

Love is like handing someone a gun, having them point it at your heart, and trusting them never to pull the trigger.

-Spongebob


'Nuff said.

Conflicting Heart Whispers...

My heart is at it again. Torn between love for career and love for my Francis. The good news is at least its not another man. Right? RIGHT?

But this is the final plan. I am going home. And when I leave again, Francis will be with me...I hope.

Mean Girls Theme. HAHA

To all those who cannot be like us. And just resort to bullshit.
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Can you hear them
They talk about us
Telling lies
Well that's no surprise

Can you see them
See right through them
They have no shield
No secrets to reveal

It doesn't matter what they say
In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed

Careless talk
Through paper walls
We can't stop them
Only laugh at them

Spreading rumors
So far from true
Dragged up from the underworld
Just like some precious pearl

It doesn't matter what they say
In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed
Pay no mind to what they say
It doesn't matter anyway
Our lips are sealed

There's a weapon
We must use
In our defense
Silence

When you look at them
Look right through them
That's when they'll disappear
That's when you'll be feared

Hush, my darling
Don't you cry
Quiet, angel
Forget their lies

Finally!

I have it all clear in my head. Thank God!

Lost.

I feel so lost right now. I have so many options it's confusing which to take. I do not resent God for presenting me with such. I am actually grateful that I had options. One way or another I would still have something at the end of the road for me. I just need guidance which path to take. Which will lead to a relatively contented journey of life.

Help, help, help!!!

Anxious Life.

This is how I always envisioned how my life would be:

Host a superb meal with superb spread, as in the kind where in I get pulled off the kitchen by my "fans". (My Chef now actually does this, his "fans" even go to the kitchen to thank him for their wonderful meal!)

And after that I can hop on to another chef's restaurant to have a late night snack and mingle with other great chefs.

Learn to drink wine, so I can be sassy! :P

And on weekends, I can getaway from it all with my family...hamilo coast or anvaya cove, it's the kid's choice. ;P

Im so excited to go to Cape Cod for the summer. After the next months that I will spend in Cape Cod, I'm coming home. I'm finally going to see my Bubu. I've missed him so much. But you know what sucks? That lil' gnaw in my heart that makes me want to stay here because here...my dreams are all true. I'm not so sure what awaits me when I go back. Or if my plans will show itself in due time.

Uncertainty...is my biggest foe at this moment. Its preventing me from getting what I want.

But this love...that I know I have, is enough, I guess. For in a million ways, he has made all of my dreams come true, too.