Tuesday, October 23, 2007


So, I have finally arrived here in Arizona. It took me a while to get started. It's a good thing I found the library where I get free internet access!!! Cool huh?!

I miss my Bubu. Right now it's about the only thing I miss back home. No offense. I also started working already. I don't miss my old job much, since I am also a pizza girl here. Anyway, my apartment is great and my room mates are also nice.

I walk all the time since I don't have a car and it takes forever for the bus to come. Sometimes I wish my bubu is with me. We can share all of the nice things I see here, together. I kinda like it here. Well, I haven't seen what it's like in the summer.

I might go to LA on Nov. Yay! I miss LA already even if I was there for like 4 hours already and 2 hours of which is spend waiting in the airport! HAHAHA Anyway so will blog again another time! :)

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

The long wait...

So, my flight was moved...AGAIN.

I am starting to get pissed with the agency. The good thing about it is that I get to spend more time with my Bubu. The bad things about it is that I am already out of cash, the schedule got messed up and I lose days on my contract.

Now I am starting to wonder if I had pre-empted everything when I told everyone about it when I passed the interview.


Thursday, October 04, 2007

Presenting the De Venancio Puppet!

This family have a lot to say about what I do with my life! Sure, they give me everything. Sure, they give me money, clothes, unneccessary gadgets and stuff but I thought they were gifts. I didn't know they were buying my free will with it. Even God, gave me my OWN free will!

It's depressing how my cousins can get away with almost everything and me? I'm stuck being the responsible one, being the one who didn't want to disappoint anyone anymore. In short, I HAVE TO MAKE UP FOR MY COUSINS MISTAKES.

Sure they might have good intentions, but they never understood where I am coming from, why I am doing these things. I have a life. I have a boyfriend whom I love. Why must they tell me what they want for me all the time? What they want are sometimes not what I want!

I'm leaving in less than a week! I am so sad not being able to spend more time with my boyfriend. I miss him alot. I will miss him when I leave, but no, they just dont get it. They never get it.

And they say the DONT use their money for power. Well, they are very wrong!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Crocodile tears...

Usually when I guy starts sobbing or crying on the phone or in front of me I get turned off. I find it a tacky way to get some sympathy.


When I confronted (that eventually lead to the worst break up of my life) my ex about his behavior he cried and told me he was sorry but he didn't feel the same way about me, and that it's not about another girl. Well guess what, 2 weeks later a good friend of mine saw him at some concert with another girl.

But early this afternoon, my boyfriend called me and started to cry. He blabbered about my leaving. I didn't really get much of what he said. And it broke my heart.

You see, prior to that, I told him that I may be staying in the US for good, and might not be coming back for a while. Then later on, I had to tell him I'm leaving a week earlier. :(

It pains me to leave him. I wish he can go with me and build our future there together. But we must do it apart.

Tears arent that tacky afterall...

Monday, October 01, 2007


Okay, for today. My braces have just been lifted off to be replaced by retainers on wednesday!!! Weeeeeee!

Geekiness is over! Now, I would really, really, REALLY want to make out with my boyfriend! Teehee. Haven't done that in a while. :)