Friday, December 09, 2011

I was right about you all along. The past 2 years I tried my best to trust you and to ignore my intuition, but now you just proved to me that I was stupid to do that. I should have left you a long time ago and I shouldnt have let myself get sucked back in to a relationship that was nothing but built on empty promises.


I hope she knows that you promised me you would never leave me, that I was your forever, that I was single person you had wanted to spend forever with. I know you would tell her your sob story of how you were abused by me, but you wouldnt tell her what you did that led to that. You will be blinded by your own so called twisted values and principles that even if something is clearly wrong you will make it seem like it was still right, by your values and principles.

I hope she knows that you have left me in false hopes that we can be together again by refusing to say that it is over. That instead you said, lets see how things go after a year, like you did to the girl before me. You're own friends themselves told me they were surprised to learn about me, esp since not long before you started to bring me along with you - all you ever talked about was the girl you were supposedly no longer with before we got together.

You played your role well. And I know you would say the same things to the new one, the same ones you said to me. Things like: I thought about this, I consulted, I asked for guidance, I prayed - I'm all in. I will never break your heart. I will love you forever. And my personal favorite: I don't want to be your first, I want to be your last. You would claim you have never said that to anyone else, or felt that before but in reality you already told this very same lines to someone else.

I was right about you all along. I fought a war against myself trying to defend you because I loved you and in the end you proved to me you werent worth it.

Thursday, December 08, 2011

Great Loves.

What do we really know about great loves? Sex And The City once said that you only have two great loves. But how do we know that is indeed a great love. You see once or twice I claimed that someone was my great love. But now I wonder what I knew of it since I concluded they were my great love when I barely even knew them. When the relationship was at it's happiest, when problems were not existent yet, and everything was all butterflies.

So, did I really know anything about great loves? Or did I just conclude from the idealogy that had always filled my head? It may be the latter. Maybe it is the desire to find that kind of love. That's why I would mindlessly say "You are my great love." Without really knowing what it meant, what it took to be able to say that that was indeed a great love.

I imagine a great love to be that of Carrie and Big, wouldn't you say? After 10 long tumultous years of being lovers and then friends and then somewhere in between, it was still the two of them all along. And just when they were getting married too, Big decided to screw up but STILL in the end it was STILL the both of them all along.

I guess it's suffice to say that alot of times I have no idea what I am saying to someone else or to myself. And I should stop doing that so that I wont be clouding my head with ridiculous thoughts of fairy tales and idealism.

Thursday, December 01, 2011

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
by: Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Prince,


I want to say goodbye. Not because I dont love you anymore, or that I don't believe that you will find me but because I need to grow up. I need to stop living like I'm in a fairy tale. Because I am not. But thank you for showing me myself. I will still be here waiting for you.

I will never forget you. Until we meet.

Smile. Someone loves you. Please be happy!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

New Year's Resolution.

Sometimes you find comfort in the most strangest of ways, in the most strangest of situations and the most strangest people. I can't believe that moving out here in St. John's is all that it took for me to realize that there are far better things for me to do and experience. That to leave something or someone behind may not be the easiest thing to do but may be the best thing to do. In my life I had promised so much to everyone else, except to myself.


In the next year, my resolution is to promise myself that I will take care of myself more. Love myself more. And to put my dreams first more. This is a promise I intend to keep.

And I will not settle for anything less than butterflies. :) And I will begin by loving my life.

:)


Casanova,


I must admit I'm a little surprised with our new found friendship. But now that I think about it, the truth is that you have always been there for me. Even when I attacked you. I just want to say that I appreciate it. Thank you for seeing me the way you do and for always letting me know that I can still have the best. And that I shouldn't settle for anything less.

I also hope we can continue to be friends as we grow older (and wiser?) and go about our own lives.

I wish you well. I wish you the happiness that you deserve. Again, thank you. Please know that you are much appreciated.

I'll see you soon.

Rica

Monday, November 28, 2011

Prince!!!


Eeeeeeee!!! I'm excited!!! :)

Smile! Someone loves you! Be happy today!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Prince,


Im a lil off today. I'm not sure why. I wish you were here to give me a hug. Im sure everything will be ok after. Are you almost at my door, my Prince?

I miss you. I love you!

Smile! Be happy today!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Prince,


Rainy days are like new beginnings. It washes away all the remainders of yesterday's mess and let's you start over a clean slate.

It washes away the tears in your heart and a rainbow promises a bright day ahead.

You're my rainbow. A promise of hope and new beginnings.

Smile! Someone loves you! Be happy today!

:)

Friday, November 25, 2011

To my Prince,


There's still snow on the ground. But it wasnt as pristine and pure as it had seemed yesterday. On my way to the mall a guy in a truck splashed me with some muddy snow. And for a few hours my legs were really cold.

You know, I never felt so free in my life. I never felt so light inside. It didn't feel like I had anything weighing me down. I can finally be my carefree self and not worry about anything. I can finally spread my wings.

Thank you for making me feel all of that. Thank you! Smile. Please be happy today! Someone loves you!

:)

Thursday, November 24, 2011

I'm reading old entries from 2009. And I found them funny. Funny that none of them are true now, funny how easy it was to say all those things.


I have a bad habit with the past. I should change it now.

Funny. Just funny.

:D

Mon cher Prince,


Today is my first real snow day! It was pretty exciting. I insisted on going out and doing some errands. I walked to the harbor and took some pictures. I picked up some snow, balled it up and threw it acroas the rail. I resisted the urge to lay down on the snow and make a snow angel. Lol

I am now listening to Christmas songs. I already heard one of my favorites. I am studying for my red seal exams even if I do not know if I can actually take it. But I still wanna study for it to get ready. I am wondering what is your favorite Christmas song? Tell me when we meet okay? I wanna know.

Prince, I love you. Thank you for making me feel so loved, even if you're not yet here! Thank you. Until we meet. I'll be here. I'll be ready. :)

Smile. Someone really really loves you! Be happy today!

:)

My Prince,


Snow is falling, everything is white
Are those your footprints in sight?
Can't help smiling when I think of you,
I hope that you're thinking of me too.

Smile. Someone loves you! Be happy today!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

To My Prince,


A lil snow fell overnight and the town is almost blanketed in a beautiful white sheet. It's pretty. I wish you were here. Is snow falling where you are? Keep warm.

I was going to do my usual Tuesday night, hanging out with some friends at a pub called Trapper John's and watch an awesome band called Box. But I was watching some TV and sorting out some paperwork, I kinda got my downtime so I decided to keep it at that. I flaked out on my friends. Lol

I was reading all my older letters to you and I was smiling. I remember the feeling when I wrote those. It's the same. I couldn't stop smiling. I didn't realize how much I missed you. I hope you had missed me to. I hope you're getting closer. I can't wait!

Smile. Someone loves you. Be happy today.

:)

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Old Letters...

I was sorting through my stuff and I came across some of the old cards, letters, poems and just the little things you have sent me through the three years we were together. I kinda felt sad, because now I wonder if they were ever real.


I guess when it gets really hard, it doesn't matter what people promised or said. They just start to forget about them. Like you did. Like I did. We're just a couple of fools.

Priiiiince!!!!


I am so excited! :) Am I meeting you today??? Befriend me ok? I don't want another whirlwind romance that can be extremely romantic but can also fall apart just like that! Befriend me, get to know me and then love me. And I will do the same. :)

I can't wait to get to know you! :) Forever is ours.

:)

Monday, November 21, 2011

Hi Prince,


I am so excited today! Thought about you all day. I am so excited to meet you. I was talking to Antonette about you, about believing that someone out there can love me despite the mess that I made of my life. Someone who believes in me and my capacity to love. :)

You inspire me to be a better person and I am slowly finding the direction I lost awhile ago. :) Thank you so much!

I will forever be grateful. I can't wait to be with you! I can't wait to meet you! I hope you havent stopped looking for me.

:)

My Prince,


Goodmorning!! Another work day, I feel rested today. Yesterday, I realized in my previous letter that I wrote to you like I was writing to him. I have to stop that now. You could be a totally different person. I'll keep that in mind and in heart.

I have to tell you something. There's a guy at work I've been spending time with recently. He's been a pretty good friend so far. I slept over his house two nights ago. It was a nice feeling to have company. You dont even have to talk. You dont have to do anythig we just ate dinner on his bed. Watched a few movies and later I fell asleep. I asked him if I could just crash and wake me up for church the next day. And he did. I love friends like that you know ?

I hope you don't mind if I have friends like that. I also stopped smoking again. Yup, I was smoking for awhile. But I thought real hard about it and I figured it doesnt really help me. If anything when I smoke I end up thinking about my problems and in those 5-10 minutes spent smoking I wallow. The drinking however helps me sleep.

Yesterday I went out to brunch with another friend and it was fun. Then I went to church. After that I swung by Nipa's and asked her if she wants to watch Breaking Dawn. I originally thought i'd be sad and embittered while watching espescially because of him but I wasnt. I actually thought about you. I was silently wishing you could be like Edward. Hopefully not a vampire. Haha Its always nice to think of love stories to be like that. And that it can happen in reality. After the movie we headed back to downtown. And I thought of what I will do after.

I was scared to go home after the movie. I didn't want to go home and feel miserable. But I was so sleepy. (Hmmm, I forgot to toss my laundry into the dryer. Lol I'll worry about that later. For now, I am with you.) So instead of going to the bar I made the walk up to my house. As soon as I plopped down on my bed I started to feel like I made a mistake. I shrugged it off and turned the tv on. And watched until I fell asleep. I dont even remember what show I saw last. I wonder what I'll be doing tonight.

Thinking of you. :)

Sunday, November 20, 2011

My Own Rock.

You used to be my rock. When things were hard I always found comfort in being with you. Yeah even when the hard times were between us. But now I have to be my own rock. I have to find another place for comfort.


Whew. Great loves.

Christmas Wont Be The Same...

Christmas won't be the same without you...

Christmas won't be the same at all...

Sigh.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Hey Prince,


The past few days I've been talking to you and we've been arguing. We're spent now. It's sad. Today, I called my mom because I was feeling so desperate, yet again. And then I remembered I can't really talk to her about you because it might stress her out that I'm in this state of being/mind.

But like all moms she listened. And then I asked her how she was, how her lab test was. She then told me that she had stage 3 breast cancer. Ugh. Imagine? Here I am crying over a lost love when my mom had this illness. Wow.

So today, I decided that I will not cry for you anymore. I will not exhaust myself of thinking about the shoulda, woulda, coulda. Today, my #1 priorities are my parents. I hope you understand. It doesn't mean I'll forget about you.

I love you still. I'll be here.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

To My Prince,


How are you? I didn't talk to you for a long time. I'm sorry. I thought I found you. But it doesn't seem that way any more, or is it? Anyway, I'm still confused. I am at crossroads, just looking ahead seems unbearable and uncertain. It's scary.

My heart is broken, yet again. It was nobody's fault than mine. I'm sorry. I am still not whole for you. Instead I keep breaking my own heart. My heart is in turmoil and my brain is swimming in it's own excessive thoughts. I thought of writing to clear my head. And then I thought about you. (Where are you? Are you still there?)

I really wanted him to be you. You know? I thought you finally found me. Maybe, maybe it IS you. I am so sorry, for treating you so badly. He had me at my best, while you had me at my worst. I tried to work through it you know? But my heart, my heart was so, so, so stubborn. It will not hear anything else. It will not feel anything else but fear of pain. I don't even know how I ever felt I loved you. Realizing how much anger, fear and pain I have in my heart. You tried your best I know. I love you for it. I never really was able to let you know how much I love you. How much you meant to me. I was so busy proving to myself you loved me. So busy.

Why did I need to prove to myself that you loved me? Because I needed it. I needed so badly to feel that there is someone who can truly, truly love me. I was so insecure that I didn't deserve to be loved. Because I wasn't sure if I have ever felt love from someone else besides my friends and my parents. The kind of love two people share, intense, inconvenient, can't live without you kind of love. We had that. And now it's gone. The funniest thing is deep down inside, all I really wanted was to be with you.

I suppose I really should let you go (even if I promised you I never will) because we both know you deserve better than a broken girl, who cannot love. Maybe one day we will find each other again. And if we don't then at least even through the pain we both caused each other we still have some good memories we can remember each other by.

I want you to know, I love you. And I am sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

How come I can believe in things like "meant to be" for others but not for myself?


How come I see old lovers breaking apart only to find each other again after many years and be happy for them but not believe that the same thing can happen to me?

Why can't I see that life has so much more to offer to me? Why not?

Friday, November 11, 2011

Liberty.

After a year and a half of harboring those messages, those chat exchanges, those copied wall posts that have driven me nuts over the past year, which have caused me so much pain. Just a few minutes ago...I deleted them. Yep. Gone. Forever. I felt liberated. I felt free.


I re-read them before I deleted them, expecting to feel a pang pain, something I felt every time I had read them in the past. And I didn't. I let out an exasperated sigh. A small smirk even.

This is a good thing.

Finally, freedom.

:)

Life vs Movies

The tragedy of life is that it's not like the movies. It's no use getting caught up in stupid romantic comedies, because those things don't happen in real life. No one ever arranges a flash mob to dance for you, or drives all the way where ever you are to tell you they love you, to apologize, to prove they feel what they feel. Or makes you a vampire so you can literally have forever.


Stupid romantic comedies.

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

October

It's October! This month I am turning a year older again. And I have nothing to show for it.


Crap.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Ber Months = Christmas

So, it's September! Meaning, it's Christmas time!!!! So my Christmas wishlist, as usual!


1. Him. Still, like every year since 2008.
2. Win the lottery jackpot! HEHE
3. A better opportunity, career wise.
4. Pass the Red Seal Exams!
5. A nice day (and get the day off) to hike up Signal Hill once again.

Thank you! :)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Remember when...

Remember when your boylet/boytoy/boyfriend would tell you he'll call you and when you would wait and he forgets to call and a fight ensues? Well, I am well past that stage. Things are so simple back then. If your guy calls as he said he would all would remain nice. If he didn't then that's another story. Of course, I didn't really think that forgetting to call could actually mean something else, like maybe he was calling another girl or worse is already out with someone else.


Now, we ask more important questions like "Is he the one?" "Can I trust him?" "Will he do everything in his power not to hurt me?" "Should I marry him?" "Will he be a good father?" "Will he be a good husband?" "Will I be a good wife?" "Can I live with the annoying things about him?" And the list goes on.

Hay. I'm so bored.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I am Jealous.

I am jealous of Nipa and Jamil. After 3 long years of being apart, they are finally together. Jamil is having a hard time at work and Nipa spends all her days waiting for him to come home, but is it worth it? I believe it is.


I am jealous of some friends who have been engaged around the same time I did and have long gotten married.

I am also jealous that some of them, also in long distance relationships have either already closed the gap between them or is closer to closing the gap.

When will it be my turn??? *sigh*


Wednesday, July 27, 2011

2nd Timers.

When I was in college I had two buddies who were together for the four years we were studying. Being hopeless romantics, I think we all thought they would eventually graduate and get married. They did everything together, if we had groups they're always together in one group, if we only had partners they were naturally partners. They're the kind of couple you wanna hang out with they never make you feel like you are a third wheel. They had a funny story. One I will always remember.


In our thesis year, they broke up. The whole barkada was shocked and sad. They still managed to be friends. And I think our girl friend has never really stopped loving our guy friend. And like most hopeless romantics, I always thought they'd get back together and still graduate and get married, eventually. But we all graduated, they did not get back together. We all saw each other from time to time. Some of us moved across the oceans to try something new, some of us stayed back. Each other moved on and had their own relationships.

Sometime last year, our guy friend was doing something for my aunt and he always had our girl friend with him. My nosey mom thought they are back together. I teased them but they wouldnt say anything. HEHE But now it can finally be said that they are back together. After almost 10 years since they first got together and after 5 years of living separate lives, they managed to find their way back to each other.

So, eventually...hopefully in the next few years, they will get married. I love happy endings! :)

Monday, July 25, 2011

I'm such a jealous little freak. :(

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Hindi parin natatanggal ang sakit. Lampas isang taon na, masakit parin. Hindi nawala, hindi nabawasan, mas lalong lumalim ang mga sugat.


Ngayon sabihin mo sa akin, mali ba na sa halip na hilingin ko na maging matatag tayo, eh hinihiling ko na sana matapos na tayo. Kasama nun matatapos ang kalbaryo ko.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Reality TV Shows.

I am living my life through other people's lives! Well, at least some of the stuff that I want in my life. Some people literally have everything they could ever want in their lives.


I'm jealous.

Friday, July 08, 2011

Friday.

My Friday night consists of frozen pizza, Grey Goose, Simply Orange and tired feet.


Oh...and a broken heart.

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

Jamil.

I've been working with Jamil for the past 2 months. He arrived in St. John's 4 months before I did and he took the time to offer to show me around and help me find a house. He also answers most of my immigration questions as his wife is already coming here to Canada to join him. He gave me tips and some of the stuff he needed to do so that he can get her a visa. I'm happy for him.


We share the same sentiments at work, and I talked to him with some issues in my life, for lack of anyone to talk to. Fleeting conversation, not a lot of details but he was able to give me some insights.

I envy him. But at the same time, I'm happy for him.

7 Years.

Bitch.


Why not? For the past 7 years I have been getting bitch slapped by life. So why not become one? So I can fight, so I can hit back. 7 years, of just sitting, watching things unfold, holding in all the pain and anger.

2004 was the year I first had a real relationship. It was like magic. Imagine meeting someone and feeling the intense chemistry between you. It felt like it was destiny for you to be with him. And after some rough time, when I thought it was working out rather nicely, life decided to slap reality to my face. He said, he didn't love me the way he had before. And I thought about all the things I have done for him, for the relationship, to make it work. Where could I have gone wrong? He said that it wasn't me. It was him. He just couldn't feel the way he used to feel for me anymore. I asked him if there was someone else. He said no. And so, I defeatedly let him go. There was no use fighting a losing battle. It was okay, until I found out later on that he DID have someone else. He just didn't have it in him to tell me he truth. Did he know how much it hurt? To be betrayed like that? To believe that it was just really not working out only to find out the painful truth that he just couldn't fight for me in his heart. That he just decided to love someone else, despite all the sacrifices I made for him.

After awhile and a few other boys, I met someone who intrigued me. Who drew me in and I found myself in a relationship again. Again it felt like magic. It didn't necessarily feel right, but the magic was enough to make it seem so. And I jumped right in with my eyes closed, and then I crashed. He had someone else. And it took 2 women to send me e-mails to believe that he really didn't care about me at all. That he was just using me. He took everything for me. I had nothing. Just a mess of a broken heart.

And then there was a surprise. When I least expected it, when I least wanted it, when I least needed it. But again, it was magic. How can I ignore it? My heart couldn't. Even if I knew otherwise. I followed my heart. Damn heart! It didn't know any better. It never knew. Of course I also barely knew him. I was too excited, too caught up in all the magic and fairy tales that I overlooked this, that I ignored it. Soon after I would find out that he was just like the others. Too many women in his life. What they, who they are to him, I can't even tell. I don't know where I stand.

And so here I am, after 7 years...still broken. A mixture of shattered dreams and a battered heart. I don't even know what to do with myself sometimes. I just want to disappear. I want curl up in my bed and cover myself up in my blankets and never move. Not in even to breathe. I can hear my head pounding, trying to cope with the madness around me. I am so angry.

It's been 7 years. Now I wont watch anymore. I will hit back.

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

...

Do you know what it feels like to be consumed in fear and anger? I do. I feel it now. I feel it pulsating through my veins. I am angry. But I am also scared.


I am angry at situation I am in now. I don't know whose fault it is that I am here. I don't know what drove me here. I am angry at the people who I blame for pushing me to be who I am today. I am angry.

I am scared of what will happen. I am scared of the person I have become. But at the same time, I am scared to be anyone less of who I am today. I don't want the same people to think they can do it to me all over again.

Monday, June 27, 2011

I Hate People.


Fuck 'em all.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

New Home.

Well...at least for next two years! HAHA


I am in Newfoundland, Canada. And this is where I will be for the next two years! :) It's amazing how all my dreams are coming true. :) Next stop FCI?

:)

Friday, March 11, 2011

The world is at my feet right now!


I'm so excited!!! I can't stand it!

Wee!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Friendships In A Foreign Land.

Real friends nowadays are hard to come by, what more if you are in a foreign land. Sure, I have roommates whom I talk to, I have colleagues whom I see everyday at work but I cannot seem to fully bring myself to consider most of them friends. I know that if one day I needed help, I know that I cannot rely on any of these people to be there for me.


Some of them are weird. Some of them are two faced. Some of them are just plain nasty. But the thing that really irritates me and scares me the most are the two faced ones. They talk shit about someone, and that someone thinks that they are "okay" worse is that they are friends. And it makes you wonder, what the hell does this person say about me behind my back?! You know what I mean? UGH. I wonder how these people have friends. And I wonder if they're friends know what kind of friends they have.

So I am really glad to know that I already have the friends I need. And these new people, I'm not sure what to make of them.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Highs.

I am so happy! :)


I know, I am also so bi-polar. But hey, I'll take it! :P

Anyway, I'm waiting for a few things in the next few weeks and I'm starting to feel good. Even with some unavoidable annoyances. :)

Lovin' it.

Sunday, January 09, 2011

...

I'm Rica. I'm 28, and I want to be free again.


Thanks.

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Happy New Year!!!!

I'm a few days late. HEHE I was busy at work and stressed with all the paperwork I had to do. And like what my good friend Joal said "Just like that it's 2011!!!" He is right, time flew by so fast! I only have 1 year and half to stay here in the US. And well, some of my goals are still floating around. I'm kicking off the new year broke, haha. I have to pay off some bills and saving to pay off my aunt.


First Quarter of 2010
It started out somber and depressing, with all the fights. And to pass time, attention and avoid losing it, I started to actively nurture relationships with friends. New friends and old friends I had been neglecting, I bonded more with my good friend Kevin, kept in touch with my Ate Sandy, April and the ones I left (and miss dearly) back home. And for awhile, I actually started to enjoy myself again, as long as I didn't pick up the phone to talk to him. But of course, things do not turn out that way.

Second Quarter of 2010
I was going back to the Cape! Not in Orleans, but Provincetown. I was so excited. I wrapped up work in Florida and headed over to Ptown! No, I didn't do Disneyworld or MCA Universal (I need to go back!) but I guess there will be a next time. Provincetown is interesting. I like it there but I had some problems with work, and I just had to suck it up. I also met some awesome people!!! I will never forget them!

Third Quarter of 2010
The visit was the highlight of this part of the year. My relationship seemed to be healing, aside from some relapses from my part. I was also finally going back to Arizona. Provincetown's charm was slowly wearing off and I'm gearing up for my visit to NYC! I am so excited to be seeing one of my bestest friends! I was also very lonely and saddened with the goodbyes.

Fourth Quarter of 2010
Celebrating my birthday alone. Celebrating our anniversary alone. But we weren't fighting as much as we used to, which was good. Holidays!!! I had to work on a lot of them but the best was being off Christmas and having him and his parents come to spend Christmas with me. New Year was spent working, as usual. But at least we didn't argue that day, for a change.

Heartfelt thank you's to:

Mama, Papa - Thank you for being the most understanding parents ever!

Nanay - You always surprise me with how much you really love us and you show it in such a different way. Even when you are sooo makulit. Love you!

Mom and Dad (aunt and uncle) - Thank you for being so supportive of me!

Rey - I love you!

Kevin and Manel - thank you for your time and effort spent on keeping our friendship going!

Antonette - soulsista, I miss you! Happy Birthday this month!

April - I don't know how long you'll be around, but I'll take what I can get!

My JIC friends: I miss you guys dearly!!!

My DMC Filipino friends: Thank you! :)