Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Very Special Love.

No, it's not the songs lyrics anymore. I'm 26. I'm turning 27 this year. And I'm in love with the most wonderful guy. The thing that is most amazing is that now, I am actually sure that I am ready to settle down with him. I am sure that I will spend the next years of my life well with him at my side.

The last 8 years of shuttling from dating and some relationships have shown me the way to a place I can call my own. Beside him. It's like there's no other place to be but there. Admist the fears in my heart. The anxiety the distance brings me, his soothing voice admist the inner storm calms me down.

I cannot wait to see him again. It's been 3 months of constant phone calls, of a barrage of text messages, multiple instant messaging accounts to just keep in touch - in any other case I would've felt too tied down. But I don't.

It's amazing how at the strike of 8 or 9 PM at the latest I would be headed home so I can call him at 10 or 11 PM. No matter how great the party I am at would seem. No matter how long I haven't seen my friends. It's amazing that it is my own choice to do this. Not something he had to ask of me.

It's amazing that even when I am not in the best of moods and didn't want to talk to him I still will. Usually no one can make me. The funniest part is how much I would miss him when I'm in my better mood.

There are plenty of things that are amazing about US, that we notice everyday we spend "together". All of those are a plus at how things are just falling into place. The only thing that is left is to be together. Which will be soon.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


Sometimes, it sucks to be me.

I want to sleep.




Saturday, January 03, 2009

A Survey Recap.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
- Went to Disney.
- Hopped on a train.
- Sat at the bar New York nonetheless.
- Got a laptop, camera and iPod for myself.
- Went to a rave party...which wasn't that much.
- Went completely numb.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Kind of. I tried. My resolution was to go to church every sunday and I did try but I was better when I was in MA.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No not really. She wasn't that close to me.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No not really.

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
- Better self image.
- Self-confidence.
- A Savings account.
- More discipline to be able to lose weight.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Oct 23, 2008. HEHE

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting hired as Sous Chef! (Guess what I got my dream job! All on my own! HAHA)

9. What was your biggest failure?
Failing to recognize a person's true intentions.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Sort of yeah.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Nikon D90 and my laptop!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Christian Rey Guilles'. HEHE. :) Loooove him.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Francesco Ongkiko

14. Where did most of your money go?
Some bastard.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- Disney! (HAHA)
- Seeing my Bubu almost everyday.
- My job now.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Take A Bow - Rihanna
Leavin' - Jesse McCartney
Single - NKOTB

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
- Happier or Sadder? Definitely happier!
- Richer or Poorer? Poorer. HAHA
- Thinner or Fatter? Thinner...but gaining weight. AGHH!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Fixing my papers so I didn't have to go home.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Listening to the bastard. HAHA

20. How did you spend the holidays?
On the phone with my Bubu.

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Gossip Girl, The Hills.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Well, hate is such a strong word. Let's just say I don't really give a damn.

25. What was the best book you read?
Twilight, 5 People You Meet In Heaven, Alchemist (because I re-read it! HAHA)

26. What was your favorite film of this year?
I didn't watch a lot of films. Sex And The City, which I saw over the internet.

27. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
More grown-up and fab! HAHA

28. Whom did you miss?
I missed Rey the most.

29. Who was the best new person you met?
Hands down, my fiance, Christian Rey Guilles!

30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
God listens. He doesn't always give us what we want but instead gives us what we need the most.