I was right about you all along. The past 2 years I tried my best to trust you and to ignore my intuition, but now you just proved to me that I was stupid to do that. I should have left you a long time ago and I shouldnt have let myself get sucked back in to a relationship that was nothing but built on empty promises.
Friday, December 09, 2011
I hope she knows that you promised me you would never leave me, that I was your forever, that I was single person you had wanted to spend forever with. I know you would tell her your sob story of how you were abused by me, but you wouldnt tell her what you did that led to that. You will be blinded by your own so called twisted values and principles that even if something is clearly wrong you will make it seem like it was still right, by your values and principles.
I hope she knows that you have left me in false hopes that we can be together again by refusing to say that it is over. That instead you said, lets see how things go after a year, like you did to the girl before me. You're own friends themselves told me they were surprised to learn about me, esp since not long before you started to bring me along with you - all you ever talked about was the girl you were supposedly no longer with before we got together.
You played your role well. And I know you would say the same things to the new one, the same ones you said to me. Things like: I thought about this, I consulted, I asked for guidance, I prayed - I'm all in. I will never break your heart. I will love you forever. And my personal favorite: I don't want to be your first, I want to be your last. You would claim you have never said that to anyone else, or felt that before but in reality you already told this very same lines to someone else.
I was right about you all along. I fought a war against myself trying to defend you because I loved you and in the end you proved to me you werent worth it.