How could you?

How can you allow yourself to fall in love when just the mere thought of it is already breaking your heart?

Someone shoot me now. I think I am indeed on the edge of falling for someone. This can't be happening to me. Not yet. Not so soon. Not after the pain.

So how does one control these fluttery nice feelings when that person says hi? When he says something really sweet?. Something unexpected? Cant believe I am smiling through writing this entry!

He is way out of my league. Unattainable. Why do I hurt myself like this?

Someone shoot me. NOW.