An open letter...

I'm sorry, for hurting you. I know I've been hard to deal with. For picking fights, because I wanted to prove something to myself. I've done this before. His name was Mike. He loved me too. And I hurt him, the way I am hurting you now. I know I will pay dearly for being rash and reckless with handling my feelings and your feelings. Please forgive me. You'll never understand and I dont wish for you to understand ever because even I dont understand why I've gone the extra mile to cause you so much pain. I wish I had a bigger heart. Big enough to love you...the way I loved the person who took away most of the love I had.

I'm sorry.