Today everything will change.

I made a decision several months ago.

1. To let go.
2. To have faith.
3. To stop hurting.
4. To forgive myself.

I dont know why I was back in that rut that I was shoved into the first quarter of 2006. But I dont want to move forward with pain my heart and with eyes that no longer lights up to the what the world shows her.

I used to be a happy person. Until I let myself drown in someone else's personality. Until I let him conquer me. And I want myself back. Not a fake "self" but what I was. Before all of this...when I was still whole.

I should be a like a phoenix...able to rise from my own ashes and be a better person...a phoenix that of which tears' can heal wounds...even those that are deep in my heart...