Alone.

Again. Its nothing new. I have been alone almost everyday here. I went to church and I just feel overwhelmed again. I asked for lot of things that I hope and pray (again) that He will give me.

It's so cold out. I started feeling sorry (again) for myself because I was shivering in the cold. I just started to tell myself "this is a sacrifice for worshiping God" it turned to some sort of mantra. And then it wasnt that cold anymore.

I miss my positivity. I am having a lot of problems getting it back.