Clueless.

For what seemed like the nth time. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FUCKIN' DO WITH MY FUCKIN' LIFE! ARGH! All I know is...

- I need a job. Savings are running low, can't keep spending and not earning.

- I need to go back to the US, because I want to be with him.

- I want to get more experience on my chosen career. But it seems that everytime a good oppurtunity to do it comes, matters of the heart interferes.

- I feel like I am being asked to choose again, between him and my career.

- I feel anxious about how the winter H2B applications are going to be like this time around.

What do I do?! Grrrrr.