I was right about you all along. The past 2 years I tried my best to trust you and to ignore my intuition, but now you just proved to me that I was stupid to do that. I should have left you a long time ago and I shouldnt have let myself get sucked back in to a relationship that was nothing but built on empty promises.
Friday, December 09, 2011
Thursday, December 08, 2011
Great Loves.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 12/08/2011 07:59:00 PM 0 spankings
Thursday, December 01, 2011
by: Pablo Neruda
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 12/01/2011 07:17:00 PM 2 spankings
Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 12/01/2011 01:08:00 PM 0 spankings
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
New Year's Resolution.
Sometimes you find comfort in the most strangest of ways, in the most strangest of situations and the most strangest people. I can't believe that moving out here in St. John's is all that it took for me to realize that there are far better things for me to do and experience. That to leave something or someone behind may not be the easiest thing to do but may be the best thing to do. In my life I had promised so much to everyone else, except to myself.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/29/2011 05:19:00 PM 0 spankings
Casanova,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/29/2011 01:18:00 PM 0 spankings
Monday, November 28, 2011
Prince!!!
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/28/2011 08:20:00 PM 0 spankings
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/27/2011 07:40:00 PM 0 spankings
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/26/2011 09:23:00 PM 0 spankings
Friday, November 25, 2011
To my Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/25/2011 10:16:00 PM 0 spankings
Thursday, November 24, 2011
I'm reading old entries from 2009. And I found them funny. Funny that none of them are true now, funny how easy it was to say all those things.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/24/2011 08:02:00 PM 0 spankings
Mon cher Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/24/2011 01:10:00 PM 0 spankings
My Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/24/2011 09:14:00 AM 0 spankings
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
To My Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/23/2011 05:47:00 AM 2 spankings
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Old Letters...
I was sorting through my stuff and I came across some of the old cards, letters, poems and just the little things you have sent me through the three years we were together. I kinda felt sad, because now I wonder if they were ever real.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/22/2011 06:37:00 PM 0 spankings
Priiiiince!!!!
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/22/2011 07:09:00 AM 0 spankings
Monday, November 21, 2011
Hi Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/21/2011 07:52:00 PM 0 spankings
My Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/21/2011 06:03:00 AM 0 spankings
Sunday, November 20, 2011
My Own Rock.
You used to be my rock. When things were hard I always found comfort in being with you. Yeah even when the hard times were between us. But now I have to be my own rock. I have to find another place for comfort.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/20/2011 05:50:00 PM 0 spankings
Christmas Wont Be The Same...
Christmas won't be the same without you...
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/20/2011 07:31:00 AM 0 spankings
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Hey Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/19/2011 05:42:00 PM 0 spankings
Thursday, November 17, 2011
To My Prince,
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/17/2011 06:53:00 PM 0 spankings
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
How come I can believe in things like "meant to be" for others but not for myself?
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/16/2011 05:15:00 PM 0 spankings
Friday, November 11, 2011
Liberty.
After a year and a half of harboring those messages, those chat exchanges, those copied wall posts that have driven me nuts over the past year, which have caused me so much pain. Just a few minutes ago...I deleted them. Yep. Gone. Forever. I felt liberated. I felt free.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/11/2011 05:49:00 PM 1 spankings
Life vs Movies
The tragedy of life is that it's not like the movies. It's no use getting caught up in stupid romantic comedies, because those things don't happen in real life. No one ever arranges a flash mob to dance for you, or drives all the way where ever you are to tell you they love you, to apologize, to prove they feel what they feel. Or makes you a vampire so you can literally have forever.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 11/11/2011 02:03:00 AM 0 spankings
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
October
It's October! This month I am turning a year older again. And I have nothing to show for it.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 10/05/2011 07:12:00 AM 0 spankings
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Ber Months = Christmas
So, it's September! Meaning, it's Christmas time!!!! So my Christmas wishlist, as usual!
Posted by soulfoolchic at 9/20/2011 06:41:00 PM 0 spankings
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Remember when...
Remember when your boylet/boytoy/boyfriend would tell you he'll call you and when you would wait and he forgets to call and a fight ensues? Well, I am well past that stage. Things are so simple back then. If your guy calls as he said he would all would remain nice. If he didn't then that's another story. Of course, I didn't really think that forgetting to call could actually mean something else, like maybe he was calling another girl or worse is already out with someone else.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 9/10/2011 10:29:00 PM 1 spankings
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
I am Jealous.
I am jealous of Nipa and Jamil. After 3 long years of being apart, they are finally together. Jamil is having a hard time at work and Nipa spends all her days waiting for him to come home, but is it worth it? I believe it is.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 8/10/2011 06:17:00 PM 3 spankings
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
2nd Timers.
When I was in college I had two buddies who were together for the four years we were studying. Being hopeless romantics, I think we all thought they would eventually graduate and get married. They did everything together, if we had groups they're always together in one group, if we only had partners they were naturally partners. They're the kind of couple you wanna hang out with they never make you feel like you are a third wheel. They had a funny story. One I will always remember.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/27/2011 10:56:00 AM 0 spankings
Monday, July 25, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Hindi parin natatanggal ang sakit. Lampas isang taon na, masakit parin. Hindi nawala, hindi nabawasan, mas lalong lumalim ang mga sugat.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/12/2011 10:31:00 AM 5 spankings
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Reality TV Shows.
I am living my life through other people's lives! Well, at least some of the stuff that I want in my life. Some people literally have everything they could ever want in their lives.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/10/2011 05:47:00 PM 0 spankings
Friday, July 08, 2011
Friday.
My Friday night consists of frozen pizza, Grey Goose, Simply Orange and tired feet.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/08/2011 07:09:00 PM 0 spankings
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
Jamil.
I've been working with Jamil for the past 2 months. He arrived in St. John's 4 months before I did and he took the time to offer to show me around and help me find a house. He also answers most of my immigration questions as his wife is already coming here to Canada to join him. He gave me tips and some of the stuff he needed to do so that he can get her a visa. I'm happy for him.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/06/2011 10:54:00 PM 0 spankings
7 Years.
Bitch.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/06/2011 01:51:00 PM 0 spankings
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
...
Do you know what it feels like to be consumed in fear and anger? I do. I feel it now. I feel it pulsating through my veins. I am angry. But I am also scared.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 7/05/2011 09:00:00 PM 0 spankings
Monday, June 27, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
New Home.
Well...at least for next two years! HAHA
Posted by soulfoolchic at 5/21/2011 08:51:00 AM 0 spankings
Friday, March 11, 2011
The world is at my feet right now!
Posted by soulfoolchic at 3/11/2011 02:29:00 AM 0 spankings
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friendships In A Foreign Land.
Real friends nowadays are hard to come by, what more if you are in a foreign land. Sure, I have roommates whom I talk to, I have colleagues whom I see everyday at work but I cannot seem to fully bring myself to consider most of them friends. I know that if one day I needed help, I know that I cannot rely on any of these people to be there for me.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 2/27/2011 10:57:00 PM 0 spankings
Monday, January 31, 2011
Highs.
I am so happy! :)
Posted by soulfoolchic at 1/31/2011 10:41:00 PM 0 spankings
Sunday, January 09, 2011
...
I'm Rica. I'm 28, and I want to be free again.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 1/09/2011 03:42:00 AM 2 spankings
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Happy New Year!!!!
I'm a few days late. HEHE I was busy at work and stressed with all the paperwork I had to do. And like what my good friend Joal said "Just like that it's 2011!!!" He is right, time flew by so fast! I only have 1 year and half to stay here in the US. And well, some of my goals are still floating around. I'm kicking off the new year broke, haha. I have to pay off some bills and saving to pay off my aunt.
Posted by soulfoolchic at 1/05/2011 03:24:00 AM 0 spankings