Gone cross-eyed listening to my inner monologues...

Okay. I'm starting to go crazy! Goddammit! I am not supposed to feel this way! Hell fockin' no! I've never felt this way...EVER. Pffft. Stop. Madness. Bliss. Butterflies. Stop. Not fair. Not right.

When has love been fair anyway? WAIT! Erase and rewind, who said anything about love? NO! No love involved! Just a lot of giddiness! Oh well. But still!!! I cannot do this to myself. No. Can't allow this. Maybe it's because it's been awhile since I felt this way. Darn it! This is SOOOO high school! And I hated high school! I feel like a kid with a silly crush again. And I am NOT a kid anymore. I'm an adult now. I'm just trying to be a kid. And I have to draw the line somewhere. Yes. Draw the line at some point. Be a kid and an adult at the same time.

Rambling. Senseless...not the kind I prefer. Shit.